End to Start
NCT 127

The End of December
Hayasaka as Lee Taeyong

It was out of mere curiosity at first.The way you promoted yourself was really cute. I loved how friendly and welcoming you seemed to be, how I could imagine a warm smile on your face behind the screen while typing said reply. I looked at your Carrd, and the deal was sealed — the way you delineated and designed everything truly captured my heart.You were so warm and kind, that I felt dumb for being all awkward and scared in the first place. I didn't even notice, but by the two hours mark — exactly when midnight strikes and the new year sets in — I was already smiling ear to ear behind the screen, the loneliness I felt earlier vanishing like it was never there in the first place.When the session ended, one hour into the new year, I cursed at myself for not booking a longer session — should've sacrificed the little money I had left, I murmured. Still, I started the new year by having you appear in my dreams, and I could not have been happier.

The Start of January
Hayasaka as Kim Doyoung

On the fourth of January, I developed a big, fat, truly enormous crush on Kim Doyoung — and it wasn't even because of the idol himself.After the first session ended, I instantly booked another session, starting from the fourth to the sixth of January. Taeyong was my ultimate bias, so I requested him to be your portrayal at first, but I chose to change things up and asked you to use your preferred muse instead.I was glad that you were still — no, even more welcoming and appreciative than you previously were. From the way you'd say "I love you" at the most unexpected times, to the way you'd laugh so heartily at my lame attempts at being funny, it's like every fibre of your presence is filled with love and kindness.I love how even if we weren't conversing, I'd still feel your presence whenever you'd change the song to another that reminded you of me during our Spotify sessions. Every moment I've spent with you fills me with joy and happiness, truly.

When it all went down, the only one I could think of was you — how I wanted to escape into your warm hug, to run away before the world screws me over like it always does.How can you be so kind, Hayasaka? Even when I haven't said much, you were able to tell I wasn't feeling well. Without any sort of preamble, your body welcomes me into a hug, filling me with so much warmth and adoration that I almost forgot what I was so upset about in the first place.Everything seems to sail smoothly when I'm with you. It had always been hard for me to articulate my feelings, and yet I do it unconsciously when I'm with you. It's as if you're the embodiment of the perfect home for me, with how I always find myself feeling at ease when I'm with you. At this point, how can I thank you enough?Thank you for everything, Hayasaka. I'm sorry if anything I've done had made you uncomfortable at all. While it isn't much, I hope this Carrd was able to make you smile, as it suits you a lot.

What the Future Holds
Mamura as Lee Donghyuck